Yeeesh

Less in pain! Because my ankle is *almost* healed up. I can walk on it, but my mom wants me to use either crutches or a brace to be careful. I have a kitty on my bed yes I doooo. and he's furry all ov...okay I'm done. but he's cute. Hmmmmm..Diaannna, you can come to soccer sessions I think in August? maybe sooner, but we might be leaving for hiking later this summer. SO yeah.-.-' why couldn't we go somewhere with hot dudes huh? At least Mackinac is interesting! And 'kenna dahling, have your party in august, it gets hottest then. :P I'm learning bass. it is awesome. The math tutoring I'd be happy to do without, but the bass is awesome. yep. short post, I'm lagging lotsatons.
---Caustic Sarcasm
I gotta be honest, I think you know, we're covered in lies and that's okay. At least somewhere beyond this, I know, I hope I can find the words to say, anyways, never again, no no, no never again, cuz you're a god, and I am not, and I just thought I'd let you know. You're a god oh when I am not, I just thought I'd let you go...

Bleah.

Less angst than before. which is good (Thank you Nina! I owe you lotsa tons have that party soon grrl!) I am however in pain. See I was playing soccer with my parental units, and I slipped, and my foot stuck out, and my sister hit my foot and landed on it, cuz we were both going to the ball. SO now I have a sprained ankle and crutches. And I hate it. Everyone's treating me like I'm made of glass and everytime I protest mama and Daddy say "You should appreciate what we're telling you, it'll help you not make it worse." How much worse can it be? I can't do ANYTHING right now, can barely get down or up the stairs on my own, and am completely useless, AND I'm hungry and can't go into the kitchen without getting swarmed by my kitties. I really don't like this at all. AT ALL. whew. Now that THAT'S over and done with. Vacation time...eh. mostly spent hanging around, went to Evanston (right next door to Chicago folks) and helped my grandpa get ready to move to Ann Arbor. Meaning move all his stuff out cuz he's a packrat, but I love him anyways, despite all the splinters I got. Oh yes, and I saw USA VS MEXICO MENS SOCCER BITCHES! It was a GRUDGE MATCH. And I mean GRUDGE the two teams really don't like each other. So awesome. USA won, but at least 95% of the stadium was Mexico fans. It was an entire sea of green. Anytime someone started chanting "USA, USA" they started going "Mexico Mexico" and EVERYONE in the entire stadium would do that. So. awesome. Eh. whatever though.
---Caustic Sarcasm
Tomorrow's just another day, another way to spend my day, all by myself. Staring at the TV screen, flipping through my magazine, everything is unclear, cuz I need you here, dododo, and I wake up, put on my makeup, pick up the phone, nobody's home, I need to break out, get me some takeout, stand so the crowd, I wanna scream aloud, that I'll be okay. I'll be okay.

anngssttt

yeah. I feel angsty right now. see Jadams and I are all fighty and stuff (breaking our temporary truce) and it irks me. alot. He assumes that people are gonna lie down and let themselves be walked on and when they don't, he throws a goddamn fit. He thinks that we can be friends, but if his version of friend is someone to walk on, I don't wanna see what he treats his enemies like. Oh wait, I already KN OW what, I am one! This is an incredibly bitter post. I feel stupid. Until the last 3 weeks of school I couldn't manage to have a frickin conversation with the boy I like. And now he's gone and even if he did or is gonna go to Viggy's party I'll miss him because I'm in Chicago right now. Joy to the friggin world. I can't see Kayla or anyone else leaving. yea I'm bitter. EDIT: anyone who feels like showing monsieur ass (jadams) this post, can if they like, everyone else, have a nice summer.
---Caustic Sarcasm
And you can't fight the tears that ain't comin, or the moment of truth in your lies, when sooner or later it's over I just don't wanna miss you tonight and I don't want the world to see me, cuz I don't think that they'd understand, when everything's made to be broken. I just want you to know who I am, yeah.

Confusion, happiness, sadness and relief?

Well. that's it. That might be the last time I see some people in my grade. or at least regularily. I had a good time at Cedar Point, despite the sunburn. I got soaked at least 17 times, which is always fun cuz there's a bridge under this water ride you can stand under and when it hits water you get completely soaked. Good fun. I could almost say I preferred sitting on the buses and hanging out with people , *coughhackwheeze*boy*coughackwheezewheeze*, Just..it's kinda sad how many people are leaving. And it doesn't feel right cuz some of these people are what make our grade OUR GRADE. Even if it doesn't show. And I don't want them to leave. Because I like our grade the way it is, even if Nolan is an asshole. I mean cmon, these are people I've only known one year and gotten attached to. I can't imagine how people who were here since sixth grade feel, but I can make a guess. So..yeah. goodbye to you people leaving, if you don't come back and visit I WILL HUNT YOU ALL DOWN. naw I'm kidding. Only not cuz I'll miss half of you. But. yeah. Bye.
---Caustic Sarcasm
Just wanna get it over with. Tears form behind my eyes, but I do not cry. Thinking about the days that've passed me by. I'm so tired of living down in my soul. Searching for the memories all over again. And I say, goodbye to you, goodbye to everything that I knew. You were the one thing I loved, the one thing I tried to hold on to.

All in favor to kill? I!

so..confused. Vaguely embaressed too. See I wrote a song the other day ( and I rarely get inspiration for that)and I left it at school apparently cuz Kyle found it. Joy. Yet another thing to be mocked about. Meh. I guess I'm feeling kinda down considering I just figured out how many people in the grade probably dislike. I'm not gonna justify myself but I will explain something to you people. This is one thing I don't mind getting out. Just because I act ONE WAY at school, doesn't make me that way all the time. You know, part of the reason I act that way is so that people WON'T get to know me. There's people I let in my ..hmm space. And there's people I keep out through various methods. Immaturity, bitchiness, etc. I really couldn't care less if you guys start thinking oh she's a freak unless I'm depressed and stuff at the time, but seriously. Get to KNOW me before you judge me. Don't assume something, don't be irritating about what you do know, and please for the love of the gods don't sing offkey. It hurts my ears. hmm. oh yeah and Nina? I luffers youu! *hugs*
---Caustic Sarcasm
In reasonland, the emperor came down, to the waters edge, says I don't know why I'm down, I've got emeralds and rubies, sewn into my gown, but I am sadder, than the diamonds in my crown. Will you lay me down, in a fiddlers cloud, lay me down to dream, let my achin head be still, let me surrender to your will, lay me down to live a reason land. A mighty queen, came down to the sea. Said I might flee, every battle that I beat, got a hundred men battalion, they all fall down at my feet, but there's a songbird, he wil not sing for me. Will you lay me down, in a fiddler's cloud, lay me down to dream, let my achin head be still, let me surrender to your will, lay me down, to live a reasonland.

spill the beans. or some kind of fruit

Right. No more soppiness for anna. At least till after CEDAR POINT speaking of that does anyone know when it starts/ends? and I still need somewhere to stay in ann arbor afterwards cuz my mom will be in birmingham. Ehmmmmmm. Okay whoever's telling 'Kayla stuff about my blog and sutff? IT'S NOT YOUR RIGHT. if she reads it, fine, but if someones telling her all my personal info I post on her that she can tell to the grade? you die. The end. short post cuz my compy's lagging. oh yeah and this song? IT'S MINE, copy it and I will break out the flaming marshmellows. I'm not joking
---Caustic Sarcasm
I feel like I'm dying, in a major way, you caged me in here, too little too late, I feel like crying, no tears, no more. Caged bird sings, you sigh, caged bird cries, you lie, all along I knew nothin to think. And I can't keep a straight face, not silent, no, no. Silences weren't golden and these tears won't flow, oh no. Caged bird sings, I'm crying, caged bird cries, you're lyin, all along you were too little too late, I heard her song, and my guard, was done, too soon. Too little, too late, no no, no more, I loved you too long, no no more, I need you here, please gods make him go. And my caged heart is singing, don't go oh no. I feel like I'm dying in a major way, my heart's broken as the caged bird sings.

Goodbye to you, goodbye to everything that I knew..

roight. On account of Meghna's post I'm kinda copying her. only not everyone in the grade cuz that'd be too many. just the people who deserve it. :D
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Meghna: wow. you put up with my spastic, emo, psycho moments, and you are still insane, AND WRONG ABOUT IT. hehe. And it's not my fault you're so frail. gawsh. but I intend to get together with you over the summer. so there.
Nina: You have put up with my ranting, my emoness, my stupidity, and even after my encouraging you to pull one of my stupid mistakes, you still were my friend. Now that's loyalty for you. Chin up, and remember, happiness IS
Josh: Wow. Pretty much my only "guy" friend in the entire grade. hung up on one girl, and always a fun guy. Only one willing to give me a hug without being terrfied as a boy. hehehee. You better start coming to soccer sessions next year, fool!
John: not sure what to say here. We started out enemies with no clue who each other were. Still are enemies to a degree, but with a basic truce. And a nice one. yay. or something.
Diaaaannaaaa: NEVA a hoe. no matter what anyone says, if they say it, you hold em, I'll punch em. And you still gotta share those boys, the rest of us want a chance!
Abby(S): Still amazing, despite the nosiness factor, I don't know you as well as I like tho...
Chris: okay..this is gonna be a long one. The first guy to have a mellowness factor with girls I have ONLY seen with one other guy (but he doesn't go to GH), the first guy to really well...not freak out. Yes I care about you. quite a bit. so much it almost hurts (wow I'm getting overly soppy and dramatic) but remember to visit and keep in contact. or (I'M NOT JOKING) I will hunt you DOWN and bring you back to Greenhills. !MOTHER DON'T READ THIS BIT! but I think as much as is possible at this age, I might love you. good thing you don't read this
J'amie: ...as good as it gets between you and me? "asshole", "bitch" insert the perverted jokes and terror of Ms. O here.
Mckenna: Wow. really, you really saved my butt. My buddy (first one anyways) while I visited GH. My fellow predator, my tickilish queen, my FRIEND. YOu are SO gonna come over during the summer. or else. I'm serious. really. honestly. Never forget that despite everything, you are a wonderful person. no more fishing for compliments, you've got no need for that, you are GORGEOUS dearie. CUBAAA!!!
Anna: A to the 4th woot! We are awesome. And if Matt ever comes back I will lock you two alll allooonne. MwhahaaMWHAHAHAHAHHAHAA. Popcorn! Burnt Popcorn! CUCUMBER!
Lizzy: You anti-social girl you!
Katelend: grow up, life flips you crap! NAW, I'm kidding. BUT seriously, awesome person underneath it all.
Xavier: So long thanks for all the fish, too bad it's the apocolypse.. Nice talking. NIce being LOCKER BUDDIES. AHahahaha, all the dumb jokes, and discussions of martial arts and SNIPERS. :P
Aj: You're quite different from the guy I knew back then in SK in 4th grade. I can't explain how exactly we fell out (seeing as my memory is a bit shakey! GAH I'M OLD) but you are still a spaz! Talk to me over the summers, Caracas9375 Screen name, remember? VENEZUELA!!
Emily: Still the same as from SK. Always will be, sweet, with a hint of insanity mixed in.
Maya: Maya, girl, you are not a slut, you are NOTHING that the gossips say. You are sweet as honey, twice as energetic as anyone in the grade, and you are something people should strive to be, no matter what happens, you always have a place on my shoulder to cry on if you need it. And never forget that who you are is changed when you decide, not someone else.
Jeff(P): Pancakes! Shhhh. you were a good group person type in english. you and Ben were always fun to watch. funfunfun. Good times, but I don't know you that well. heh. oh well.
Nick: plenty more fish inna da see *points at Carolyn* go get her boy! GOGOGO!!!!! Mweeheehee, still, funfun. Oh yeah "VIGGY,LAUREN, STOP POKING MY ASS!"
Lauren:Amazing as ever, join us choir freaks! You can still do orchestra toooooo. I <3 you and we are SO hanging out over the summer. And your ribs, DO NOT STICK OUT IT'S UNHEALTHY.
Viggy: beginning of the year attitude is changing, not so chilly and awkward to be around anymore, you live a l'il, you learn a li'l. Don't straighten your hair! it looks good curly/wavy!
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Th..th..that's all folks. I can't think of anything to say. really. honestly. no I'm not lying. YES I'M DONE. I'm a sentimental loser aren't I? LIVE WITH IT BITCHES! :D Contact me over the summer, firewing99@yahoo.com. so there.
---Caustic Sarcasm
Broken this fragile thing now, and I can't, I can't pick up the pieces, I've thrown my words all around, but I can't, I can't get up when you're gone. I feel so broken (so broken up) and I give up (I give up) just wanted to tell you so you know, here I go, scream my lungs out, and try to get to you, you are my only one, I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do, you are my only, my only one. Made my mistakes let you down. And I can't, I can't go on for too long, ran my whole life in the ground, and I can't, I can't keep up when you're down. I feel so broken up (so broken up) and I give up (I give up) just wanted to tell you so you know, here I go, scream my lungs out, and try to get to you, you are my only, my only one.