Crash and burn

Before I says anything, ANYTHING, MOTHER OF MINE DO NOT READ THIS.
----ahem
I guess I'm kinda down in teh dumps right now. I'm a little confused, hellueva annoyed, and sad. Now, some of you may know who I like, in fact most of you probably do. But HE, yes he, despite the fact that I defend homosexuals, you homophobes you, that doesn't mean I am a homosexual, anyways, HE is leaving next year. Chao, adios, all the way away from greenhills, he ain't coming back. Not now, not ever after this year. People can call me a loser and alot of times, it's true for some things, no this isn't my self esteem speaking from it's vantage point of under a boot, it's me. Loser girl who gave her shredded up little bitty selfish heart to a guy who doesn't even give a damn, tho he gets points for being nicer about it then most people. At any rate, I'm really kinda sad right now just cuz of this all, and am fairly confused at where I'm at in life. I'll live, I always do, I'm just not sure that next year I'm going to have all of me with me. Dramatic as this sounds (and I am the queen of drama) I'm going to have a hole where my heart is, cuz this boy somehow managed to steal that pathetic thing known as my heart. Joy to the bloody whiney world. BAM! Gratzi to those who put up with my insufferable whining day in and day out.
EDIT: Post if you love me, or at least managed to read through this insufferable whineyness
------Caustic Sarcasm
Broken this fragile thing now, and I can't, I can't pick up the pieces, and I've thrown my words all around, but I can't, I can't give you a reason. I feel so broken up (so broken up), and I give up, (I give up), I just wanna tell you so you know, here I go, scream my lungs out, and try to get to you, you are my only one, I let go, there's just no one, who gets me like you do, you are my only, my only one. Made my mistakes let you down, and I can't, I can't hold on for too long, ran my whole life in the ground, and I can't, I can't get up when you're gone, somethings breaking up (breaking up), I feel like giving up (like giving up), I won't walk out until you know..