Heels over head...

I can't really say I get along with people. In fact a majority of the time I will push my friends to be pissed off at something rather stupid I've done. I would however like to explain something to you, this won't take long, it's just a few things you should goddamn well KNOW before you start biting my frickin head off.
WHAT YOU WILL NEED TO KNOW
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-I am not an optimist. I am a pessimist, this means a majority of the time I'll look at the BAD things in a situation. So before you try to change that bit of me stop. Cease. Desist. YOU WILL FAIL.
-My grandma died a couple years ago, she is dead, it has effected my life, and my entire personality, this does have a tendancy to make me vaguely morbid, so before you start rambling at me about how I don't know anything about death, shut up. I know more than you think I do.
-I am bisexual. This means I am attracted to both males and females. It does not mean I go "look hot girl/dude I will ogle them now" this does not mean I appreciate you fuckin homophobes, and not for my own reasons, but because I have several friends that are bi. I defend my friends for the homosexuals and bisexuals and yes the hetero losers too. That doesn't mean I'm going to check out every girl in the locker room, nor does it change who or what I am.
-I am a bitchy child. I do not take shit from people, nor do I appreciate stupid jokes or rumors, if you have a problem with this, go fuck yourself till you bleed, cuz I have no patience for stupid people.
-If you intend to approach me on a subject, ask the damn question, don't beat around the bush, be blunt, be obvious, subtlety is lost upon a thick girl such as me.
-I am in love with a boy, I do not appreciate this seeing as I am freakin well 14 or so. This does not make me stupid, this does not mean my common sense is lost, it just means my self-esteem will go down a bit lower.
-I AM NOT in need of therapy, I will not talk to a stupid shrink who thinks that they can tell whatever to my parents or something. I refuse. I know my mother reads this, that is why I post this.
-I do not hate people. I do not hate them, because hate crimes are enough in this world, that one person hating less is a goood thing. Dislike intensely, sure, insult, definitely, never hate.
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Now wasn't that educational, as to a few people I've lied to about being bi, I'm sorry, but at that specific point I was fucking sick of the rumors, and homophobes in our grade. If you have a problem with love, or interest in both genders, too bad. It exists, it's the way those of us who are not hetero are wired. WE. CANNOT. CHANGE. IT. Again, got a problem with it, go fuck yourself, because there is nothing wrong with me to admit to being who or what I am. This is a very pissed off post. Deal with it, because I am putting out the facts and am DONE WITH LYING.
-----Caustic Sarcasm
I hate you, I love you, I just can't, remember to forget you, who are you, who needs you, you make me feel alive, I die, so high, I'm crawling on the ground, and I've found I can fly. One of these days it all comes together, one of those days that goes on forever, think i sound crazy, maybe whatever.