WARNING:EMO POST

This post is all about the wishes, wants, wouldn'ts and feelings of this year. It's mostly directed around the guy I was crushing on and still am. Huzzah. Comment as you like.
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-I feel like I'm going to be sick when I'm in the same room as him
-I feel worse if he or I aren't somewhere we could have/should have been and had the chance to see him
-I wish he could have noticed me
-I wish we had no classes together and he was just another obscure figure in my mind.
-I wish he would look at me once the same way I look at him
-I wanted him to ask me to dance or ask me out.
-I wish he acted like J'amie so I didn't get along with him
-I wouldn't want that because he's nice as people go, and ...sweet
-I wish I could have just gotten over him in December or November
-I wish he was coming back next year
-I feel glad he's not because I won't have a constant ache in my chest
-I wouldn't want him to leave because that ache will be worse next year
-I wish that a hot italian guy would come into our grade next year. With a decent brain outside his groin.
-I posted that one just to annoy you guys
-I wouldn't have dreamed things would turn out so wrong.
-I wish that someone would notice me as something more than a friend whose short and emo sometimes
-I wish I had better control over my temper
-I wish the past few months had been what the entire year was like
-I wish I was at my old school so I could've had my old friends with me, and things didn't have to of changed
-I feel it's good I left because they changed and I did too
-I almost wish I didn't change
-I wish I had the guts to tell him, every day, instead of just looking away and sighing
-I wish he wouldn't fucking LEAVE
-I wish my mom and dad trusted me with my emotions
-I know they won't because I'm a teenager and they worry about me because they love me
-I wish that I wasn't a freak
-I feel like it's a good thing to stand out, live with it
-This post is too long. bye
----Caustic Sarcasm
Let's go back, back to the beginning , back to when the earth the sun the stars all aligned, cuz perfect, didn't feel so perfect, trying to fit a square into a circle, was no lie, I defined, I, let the rain fall down and wake my dreams, let it wash away my sanity, cuz I wanna hear the thunder I want to scream, let the rain fall down I'm coming clean. I'm shedding. Shedding every color, trying to find a pigment that only makes me, who I am, let the rain fall down and wake my dreams let it wash away my sanity cuz I wanna hear the thunder I want to scream, let the rain fall down, I'm coming clean