Angsttttttttttttt

Wow. That was alot of ranting and moping last post. Don't I feel all genius-y. Teehee. NOT!!! Hohum...not much happened today, woke up way to early with weird dreams, napped for a while with a kitty kneading through my pants with his claws -.-'. Ehmm...talked to Ninabobina and Marion alot last night. Mostly about the last post's angst and stuff, I think I just needed to bleed it off for one night instead of bottling it all up. Ah well, can't say I do much more then whine mostly. Not really having much more to say. The night isn't that young, but have a good year, and a good life. Ack, now I'm getting sentimental, next thing ya know I'll be yelling in a cranky voice about you "damn kids getting off my lawn" wheee.
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This is a hint that you take, And you pull and you find a way to get out of what you got yourself into, But when you try, But when you try to get out you’ll never find ,That most definitely I will be attracted to you, If you pick my left side, Because you know how we do, I’m selfish as selfish as comes, You’re giving me a run for my money
Honey

Crash and burn

Before I says anything, ANYTHING, MOTHER OF MINE DO NOT READ THIS.
----ahem
I guess I'm kinda down in teh dumps right now. I'm a little confused, hellueva annoyed, and sad. Now, some of you may know who I like, in fact most of you probably do. But HE, yes he, despite the fact that I defend homosexuals, you homophobes you, that doesn't mean I am a homosexual, anyways, HE is leaving next year. Chao, adios, all the way away from greenhills, he ain't coming back. Not now, not ever after this year. People can call me a loser and alot of times, it's true for some things, no this isn't my self esteem speaking from it's vantage point of under a boot, it's me. Loser girl who gave her shredded up little bitty selfish heart to a guy who doesn't even give a damn, tho he gets points for being nicer about it then most people. At any rate, I'm really kinda sad right now just cuz of this all, and am fairly confused at where I'm at in life. I'll live, I always do, I'm just not sure that next year I'm going to have all of me with me. Dramatic as this sounds (and I am the queen of drama) I'm going to have a hole where my heart is, cuz this boy somehow managed to steal that pathetic thing known as my heart. Joy to the bloody whiney world. BAM! Gratzi to those who put up with my insufferable whining day in and day out.
EDIT: Post if you love me, or at least managed to read through this insufferable whineyness
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Broken this fragile thing now, and I can't, I can't pick up the pieces, and I've thrown my words all around, but I can't, I can't give you a reason. I feel so broken up (so broken up), and I give up, (I give up), I just wanna tell you so you know, here I go, scream my lungs out, and try to get to you, you are my only one, I let go, there's just no one, who gets me like you do, you are my only, my only one. Made my mistakes let you down, and I can't, I can't hold on for too long, ran my whole life in the ground, and I can't, I can't get up when you're gone, somethings breaking up (breaking up), I feel like giving up (like giving up), I won't walk out until you know..

I Scream you SCREAM we all SCREAM FOR ICE CREAM! AIIEEE! XD

MY GOD! I cannot help but feel almost...Idunno NUMB. I have no doubt by the time I go entirely numb I won't cry, laugh, or even taste food..But I'm not for now. The bus ride back made me feel like a loner ALOT but the bus ride on the way was fun. I got clued in alot on the way there. Teehee. "THE BALL KILLED GEORGIE!!" ---Maya But I am in a very good mood now I got ice cream. MWHAHAHAHAHAHA*chokes* ahem. And my ankle is all taped up and in pain.And I HATE YOU ALL EXCEPT NINA AND MCKENNA CUZ YA'LL DON'T COMMENT DAMMIT! ARRRRRRRRGGGH!
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We keep ourselves a mystery, but we provide the clues. So the rest is up to you to get to to the obvious you're so serious so I guess it comes down to whacha got now gone and gone and give it up, whatcha got now, whatcha got now, dramatized and follow it rhymes on my back I may be ugly but they sure like to stare, dramatize things and follow me it rhymes on my back but they sure, but they sure, love to stare.

I want someone provocative and talkative and it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower

Today was fun. Despite in english where Nina and Meredith were decorating my itty bitty paper cranes in flowers. -.-' it was interesting to say the least. And my little brothers bottle rocket got the most height bwhaha. The only thing I'm a little irritated aboot is that the crush o' mine came in halfway through D period (math) and I had been having a good day til then. I'll live, I always do, and HOLY SHIT is it bad weather out there, I hope my mommy and daddy are okay. Yawn. I hope I'm not screwed over on the science test tho..POST POR FAVOR! Two people have posted on my last two posts.
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I've got the gift of one-liners, and you've got the curse of curves and with this gift I can pose words, andd the question that comes forward are you pespiring from the irony of these lyrics and this is dead in filled and my wit won't allow it. The inside lingo had me at hello and we go where the money goes, The inside lingo had me at hello, I want someone provocative and talkative and it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower, and from I won't say no, her bone structure screams touch her touch and she's got the curse of curves, so with the gift of my one-liners, and my way, my way with words, it seems I'm hip from too tight-lipped, you're making something out of nothing.

so..tedium continues

Annd the tedium of an unwanted crush. hell I'll live, I'm just whinin' about it. Hmm as a recap of the former day: ran around doing house chores, made my mom white chocolate fool, stayed up till about 12ish finishing up me homework. Bleah. Currently, I have a headache and am being a whiny biotch. Feh. I gotta stop with the angst shit. Come to think of it most people should. SO THERE! And I got Chris Arnett to threaten to kill me today. He stole his big brother's jacket and said if I told anyone he'd kill me and I was gonna go find his brother or Andrew Lee(his brother's friend) and tell them, but I had soccer practice so I couldn't. Evil will have to wait another day XD. Bwhaha...first time I've seen him threaten someone other than J'amie. Hee. Now I'm just all loopy. NO ANGST DAMN YOU ALL IT'S MY TURF! YA'LL ARE S'POSED TO BE HAPPY! So there. I've done my part.
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It's a new day, but it all feels old, it's a good life, that's what I'm told, but everything it all just feels the same. And my highschool, it felt more to me, like a jail cell, a penitentiary, my time spent there it only made me see. That I don't ever wanna be like you, I don't wanna do the things you do, I'm never gonna hear a word you say and I don't ever wanna, I don't ever wanna be you, don't wanna be just like you, oh what I'm sayin' is, this is the anthem, throw all your hands up, you, don't wanna be you.

Sooo, about that dance the other day!

It was..fun. Alot moreso then I thought. I danced with a lot of the 7th grade girls for the fast songs, and we had a lot of fun cuz we made a circle and put people in the middle! For one night in my life I was smexy like Nina or Lauren or Mckenna. Bwhaha. And I got up the guts to ask people to dance. One person danced out of I think pity cuz I was being a whiny bitch. heh. And I asked the other two. One of which being an interest of mine. BAM! Take that Ninabobina, "Interaction is the key part of a relationship" howdya like them apples! :P and I'm still revved up. But I'm sad, cuz I came like an hour and a half late. If my idiotic little brother hadn't chosen to get desert I woulda been at least a little earlier. GRRRRRR. BUT! I had a lot of fun, I got high off sprite, ran off comforting people, and there were very few slow dances and lots of fast ones, and despite "Since U Been Gone" and "Stacy's mom" getting played, they were all hellueva fun. Comment if you love me or liked the dance and hate me anyways! XD
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There's a place off ocean avenue where I used to sit and talk with you. We were both sixteen and it felt so right, sleepin' all day stayin' up all, niiiight. Stayin' up all niight. And there's a place on the corner of cherry street, where we used to go and sit on the beach, we were both eighteen and it felt so right sleeping all day stayin up all, niiight, staying up all, niiight. If I could find you now, things would get better. We could leave this town, and run forever, Let your waves crash down and take me away away away.

Hear that thunking noise? That's my head on the desk...

See, you think everything is fine, and for my normally soap opera and completely chaotic life, it is. Despite some interests being missing from school today. And having tutoring, which SUCKS I might add, why couldn't I of gotten the smart genes dammit! Who the hell am I kidding, everything's fine except my still liking someone who isn't mutual. I'll live, much as I wish they weren't leaving. Ah well, things happen, and hopefully I haven't screwed much more up. I'll live, and what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger.
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I'm having the day from hell, it was all going so well (before you came), and you told me you needed space, with a kiss on the side of my face (not again) and not to mention, the tears I shed, I shoulda kicked your (ass instead), i need intervention, attention to stop temptation to scream, well baby, everything's ffed up straight from the heart tell me what do you do when it all falls apart, gotta pick myself up, when do I start, cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart.