Damn Regret!

I have had a much better day than thursday. or yesterday. Hehehehe....Not only has my travel team won the W.H.I.S.T.L.E league we were playing in, we did it without too many serious injuries! Quite honestly they are incredibly violent (the other team) when it comes down to it. BUT! we have triumphed. And all I have is a few bruised ribs and one small urge to keeel something. But it's a small one I can fight down. Heh, despite everyone's best intentions I feel completely...I dunno looonely. I misses my old fwiend. Wah. :(. ah well, good school with few friends I trust lots an lots or bad school with really good friends in a huge hoarde that i trust with all my heart. Big freakin deal. Lots of people have it worse. I just bitch about mine more then most. And the other post yesterday, was very much provoked. Therefore I have reached the conclusion a majority of the male race have no brain cells, just something squishy rattling around up in their skulls. Because they have something in there that makes them whiney-er then us girls. Haha...mean I know, but true. If they were all that intelligent they'd be a bit more observant. Psht. And my music is ownage. SO NYA NYA! And Nina and Diana both give awesome music advice.
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We're high above the ground, we're nowhere to be found, empowered by adrenaline, again I am repeating myself. and I know when it's time for you to sit and pretend. Damn regret I'll try to forget, don't worry about me cuz I'm refined. Cast my line to see what's behind, did you think you'd persuade me to let you go. You're the only one that turned tail, what a feeling no one's e'er, when I'm only in my darkest hour, you will give me the power to sit and pretend.

dating, love, and idiocy?

I've just noticed something about society. Blind I know, but it seems to me I end up alot of times comforting a friend of mine, and letting her cry/whimper on my shoulder about the guy "not liking her or if he does not telling her" and then begins a spiraling self-esteem pit of doom. It seems that the guy is ALWAYS expected to make the first move, or to do everything for the girl. There's always the flower game of "I NEVER get flowers" and when the girl finally gets flowers from a guy she goes "Oh he loooooves me" and then he's really probably buying the flowers to get her to shut the hell up about the flowers crap. I mean, there's gotta be some miscommunication along the way because there is something seriously wrong with society where the girls have to constantly insult themselves to be normal teenagers. It's wrong, the guy doesn't notice that a girl is a beautiful, smart, caring, hilarious, and wonderful person, and the girl assumes that she's worthless. And it always seems like the girl goes all heart-broken and starry-eyed while the guy must stay manly. I mean really WHAT THE FUCK is wrong with society that it conforms us to do this to ourselves? It can't be right can it? I mean, I know I've done the whole "I am not worthy" shait more often then not, but it's not fair to people who still have a chance. so if any guys actually read my goddamn blog PAY ATTENTION, if you get a girlfriend that you never deserve, be soo damn grateful. it is not right to hang a girl up like that. And also next thursday I intend to go watch a lacrosse game. and point and laugh. hehehe.
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Why give up, why give in, it's not enough, it never is. So I will go on until the end. We've become desolate. It's not enough it, never is, but I will go on until the end. Surround me, it's easy, to follow part completely. I feel you creeping up again. It's over, no longer, I feel it growing colder. I knew this day would come to end. So let this life come to end. Why give up, why give in, it's not enough, it never is. So I will go on until the end. We've become desolate, it's not enough, never is, but I will go on until the end.

Taken down to a whole new level of shame..sigh

I cannot describe how much exactly i hate my life right now. The few that know me know about this one..thingy. And also I threw a pencil at someone today in english. and the look said person gave me made me feel completely guilty for some reason. >.<' and I tied the soccer game that might decide if our team takes first place or not, and the coach of gh school is a sadist, and I had to go to the orthadontists today, and got these new brackets waay in the back so it rubs the side of my cheek raw. And I'm not playing with my team next season, I'm playing for the gh one, where the majority is 7th graders who either hate me without knowing me because I'm "weeiiird" OR people in our grade who aren't exactly my friends, but aren't exactly unfriendly. And I'm aware I'm being an angsty biotch. Deal. Cuz I am SO in need of ranting right now.
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And I'm so sick of love songs, So tired of tears, So done with wishing you were still here. Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow. So why can't I turn off the radio.

So sick...

I am so damn sick of this stupid crush, and my stupid stupid ranting and...grrr the mood of the week is emo, and it doesn't help that Marion practically collapsed (I worry about my friends) am on the verge of losing a bfriend in a certain way. And it ain't helping. at all, it's like we've invoked murphy's law, in the entire week. short post I know. comment por favor.
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I should warn you the things you're feeling are abnormal now. Think you need me, it's not easy, let you go somehow. Now we're too far gone, hope is such a waste, every breathe you take you give me a girls bitter taste. Your lips were quite a shelter from the things that I don't know. Please speak slowly my heart is learning, teach me heartbreak to stop this burning now.

So...the last day of vacation!

A huge part of me is going NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! the rest of me is going "finally a way to get far far far away from my 'rents without them buggering me! or my little brother buggering me cuz he'll be busy huzzah!" I'm wondering how people in the grade will react, cuz of some...plotting and scheming and shizat like that. ummm, what else to say...not much really, tomorrow we go back to school, where Ms. Ostrander will no doubt pile on hw along with Mr. Jones. Heh, on the other hand, free amusement of watching the gossips, and the boys be idiots, and just seeing peeps again. And seeing if I can get away with napping in español class. not that I would or anything! XD. And of course the added bonus of poking at people until they try and maim me to death. Feeling a lot more confident then I was coming back after *mid* winter break, so that's always a good thing. However, I get the feeling the rest of the year the teachers are gonna be hardasses. DUN DUN DUUUUN! The dramatic music and poses! Gods of the heathens like me, grant me the patience to get through this without bloody murder XD.
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You're the kind of guy whose hands in mine send shivers, up and down my spine, you took my heart and put it back together again. You're the kind of guy that blows my mind, now it's my turn, you've been right in front of me, everything I need, why didn't I see? You're it, you're the ultimate, it's automatic I'm sure of it, no lie, so don't even try, to tell me that you're not the guy, cuz I've been waiting all my life, for someone just like you, you're it, you're the ultimate you!