As of yet I am armed and fabulous for graduation! I actually have a dress (yes Nina before you start mocking me I have a frickin dress and I like it, so there) and I have hiigh heels. Not as high as the boots I wore, but they aren't chunky either. According to my motherdearest I look very grownup. For once in my life. heh. I'm going to party later tonight so instead of staying up and getting bloodshot eyes at 11:30 like usual I'm gonna be up in ann arbor getting (no doubt) tackle-hugged by old and crazy friends. Moreso then I do at GH at any rate. Heh, seriously, half the time I feel like I've matured alot from last year, and some of that's a good thing, but I miss being able to be crazy all the time and getting hugs. Wah.
---Caustic Sarcasm
Beating hearts baby, baby is this love for real let me in your arms to feel, beating hearts baby, beating of your heart baby, yo, you want nothing to do with me, you, you want nothing to do with me, and I, I dunno to do with you, cuz you, you don't know what you do to me, and you, you don't know what you do to me. Baby is this love for real, let me in your arms to feel, the beating of your heart baby, the beating of your heart baby. And you, you don't know me
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Friday, May 25, 2007
Whoa man..trippeee
I think it's finally sinking in that I've gotten at least a few skeletons out of that particular proverbial closet. Heh. Which was always nice. I really appreciate everyone who commented, and special thanks to Lauren and Maya for not ousting me. Just like..a li'l bit scary after it finally took about that. Ehm...not much to say today, I mean, I think I scared my mom a little at how agressive my last post was, and it's my way of venting. Honestly I prefer this way cuz I actually have control, and it doesn't do anyone harm to vent it. Makes me happyyy. Hohum..not much more to say other then that. hee. I wish I could go to the lacrosse tournament tomorrow but I can't. And I'm going to an old friends party. I GET TO SEE EVERYONE AGAIN WOOOO! *cough* no 'ffense ya'll but I reallllly miss everybody...wonder if Peter'll be there. or Russell..hee.
---Caustic Sarcasm
Man it's a hot one, like seven inches from the midday sun. Well I hear you whisper the words that melt everyone, but you stay so cool. My manaquita. My spanish hollowed mona lisa. You know my reason for reason, is stepping in my groove. Yeah, and if you said this life ain't good enough, I'd give my world to lift you up I could change my life to better suit your mood, cuz you're so smooth. And it's just like the ocean under the moon, it's the same as the emotion that I get from you, you got the kinda loving you can be so smooth, give me your heart and make it real or else forget about it.
---Caustic Sarcasm
Man it's a hot one, like seven inches from the midday sun. Well I hear you whisper the words that melt everyone, but you stay so cool. My manaquita. My spanish hollowed mona lisa. You know my reason for reason, is stepping in my groove. Yeah, and if you said this life ain't good enough, I'd give my world to lift you up I could change my life to better suit your mood, cuz you're so smooth. And it's just like the ocean under the moon, it's the same as the emotion that I get from you, you got the kinda loving you can be so smooth, give me your heart and make it real or else forget about it.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Heels over head...
I can't really say I get along with people. In fact a majority of the time I will push my friends to be pissed off at something rather stupid I've done. I would however like to explain something to you, this won't take long, it's just a few things you should goddamn well KNOW before you start biting my frickin head off.
WHAT YOU WILL NEED TO KNOW
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-I am not an optimist. I am a pessimist, this means a majority of the time I'll look at the BAD things in a situation. So before you try to change that bit of me stop. Cease. Desist. YOU WILL FAIL.
-My grandma died a couple years ago, she is dead, it has effected my life, and my entire personality, this does have a tendancy to make me vaguely morbid, so before you start rambling at me about how I don't know anything about death, shut up. I know more than you think I do.
-I am bisexual. This means I am attracted to both males and females. It does not mean I go "look hot girl/dude I will ogle them now" this does not mean I appreciate you fuckin homophobes, and not for my own reasons, but because I have several friends that are bi. I defend my friends for the homosexuals and bisexuals and yes the hetero losers too. That doesn't mean I'm going to check out every girl in the locker room, nor does it change who or what I am.
-I am a bitchy child. I do not take shit from people, nor do I appreciate stupid jokes or rumors, if you have a problem with this, go fuck yourself till you bleed, cuz I have no patience for stupid people.
-If you intend to approach me on a subject, ask the damn question, don't beat around the bush, be blunt, be obvious, subtlety is lost upon a thick girl such as me.
-I am in love with a boy, I do not appreciate this seeing as I am freakin well 14 or so. This does not make me stupid, this does not mean my common sense is lost, it just means my self-esteem will go down a bit lower.
-I AM NOT in need of therapy, I will not talk to a stupid shrink who thinks that they can tell whatever to my parents or something. I refuse. I know my mother reads this, that is why I post this.
-I do not hate people. I do not hate them, because hate crimes are enough in this world, that one person hating less is a goood thing. Dislike intensely, sure, insult, definitely, never hate.
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Now wasn't that educational, as to a few people I've lied to about being bi, I'm sorry, but at that specific point I was fucking sick of the rumors, and homophobes in our grade. If you have a problem with love, or interest in both genders, too bad. It exists, it's the way those of us who are not hetero are wired. WE. CANNOT. CHANGE. IT. Again, got a problem with it, go fuck yourself, because there is nothing wrong with me to admit to being who or what I am. This is a very pissed off post. Deal with it, because I am putting out the facts and am DONE WITH LYING.
-----Caustic Sarcasm
I hate you, I love you, I just can't, remember to forget you, who are you, who needs you, you make me feel alive, I die, so high, I'm crawling on the ground, and I've found I can fly. One of these days it all comes together, one of those days that goes on forever, think i sound crazy, maybe whatever.
WHAT YOU WILL NEED TO KNOW
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-I am not an optimist. I am a pessimist, this means a majority of the time I'll look at the BAD things in a situation. So before you try to change that bit of me stop. Cease. Desist. YOU WILL FAIL.
-My grandma died a couple years ago, she is dead, it has effected my life, and my entire personality, this does have a tendancy to make me vaguely morbid, so before you start rambling at me about how I don't know anything about death, shut up. I know more than you think I do.
-I am bisexual. This means I am attracted to both males and females. It does not mean I go "look hot girl/dude I will ogle them now" this does not mean I appreciate you fuckin homophobes, and not for my own reasons, but because I have several friends that are bi. I defend my friends for the homosexuals and bisexuals and yes the hetero losers too. That doesn't mean I'm going to check out every girl in the locker room, nor does it change who or what I am.
-I am a bitchy child. I do not take shit from people, nor do I appreciate stupid jokes or rumors, if you have a problem with this, go fuck yourself till you bleed, cuz I have no patience for stupid people.
-If you intend to approach me on a subject, ask the damn question, don't beat around the bush, be blunt, be obvious, subtlety is lost upon a thick girl such as me.
-I am in love with a boy, I do not appreciate this seeing as I am freakin well 14 or so. This does not make me stupid, this does not mean my common sense is lost, it just means my self-esteem will go down a bit lower.
-I AM NOT in need of therapy, I will not talk to a stupid shrink who thinks that they can tell whatever to my parents or something. I refuse. I know my mother reads this, that is why I post this.
-I do not hate people. I do not hate them, because hate crimes are enough in this world, that one person hating less is a goood thing. Dislike intensely, sure, insult, definitely, never hate.
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Now wasn't that educational, as to a few people I've lied to about being bi, I'm sorry, but at that specific point I was fucking sick of the rumors, and homophobes in our grade. If you have a problem with love, or interest in both genders, too bad. It exists, it's the way those of us who are not hetero are wired. WE. CANNOT. CHANGE. IT. Again, got a problem with it, go fuck yourself, because there is nothing wrong with me to admit to being who or what I am. This is a very pissed off post. Deal with it, because I am putting out the facts and am DONE WITH LYING.
-----Caustic Sarcasm
I hate you, I love you, I just can't, remember to forget you, who are you, who needs you, you make me feel alive, I die, so high, I'm crawling on the ground, and I've found I can fly. One of these days it all comes together, one of those days that goes on forever, think i sound crazy, maybe whatever.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
One day, two day, three day.....
Third day of the week, and not much happening but the heartbreak spring always seems to bring for everyone. It's almost the end of the year, and I want, oh so badly, for someone *cough* BOY *coughhackwheeze* to not leave, and stay for highschool. But whatever, I'm NOT even going into THAT again. Not much happened today, español class we watched pan's labyrinth which was s'pposed to be creepy, but the only creepy part was a dude getting his face smashed in with a bottle. ANGER MANAGEMENT YOU DAMN FACISTS!!! >.<. Ehmehm......messed up both pots I threw, so they're off-center pieces of shit. -.-'. Not much more to say then heartbreak frickin SUCKS DAMMIT. And screw you people who'd make a sarcastic, or "witty" or whatever comment here. so there.
-----Caustic Sarcasm
Don't you wanna go for a ride, just keep your hands inside, and make the most outta life, now don't you take it for granted. Life is like a mean machine made a mess outta me like an angry dream I was stranded. I was strandeheed. And I'm steady but I'm starting to shake, and I don't know how much more I can take, well this is it now, everybody get down, this is all I can take, this is how a heart breaks, you take a hit now, you feel it break down, make her stay, wide awake, this is how a heart breaks. Don't you wanna go for a ride, down to the other side, feels so good you can cry now won't you do what I told you. I remember when you used to be shy and once we were so fine, and why you gotta make it so hard on me. Yeah it's hard on me. And I'm running but you're getting away, well this is it now everybody get down, this is all I can take, this is how a heart breaks.
-----Caustic Sarcasm
Don't you wanna go for a ride, just keep your hands inside, and make the most outta life, now don't you take it for granted. Life is like a mean machine made a mess outta me like an angry dream I was stranded. I was strandeheed. And I'm steady but I'm starting to shake, and I don't know how much more I can take, well this is it now, everybody get down, this is all I can take, this is how a heart breaks, you take a hit now, you feel it break down, make her stay, wide awake, this is how a heart breaks. Don't you wanna go for a ride, down to the other side, feels so good you can cry now won't you do what I told you. I remember when you used to be shy and once we were so fine, and why you gotta make it so hard on me. Yeah it's hard on me. And I'm running but you're getting away, well this is it now everybody get down, this is all I can take, this is how a heart breaks.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
BAM BITCHES!
That is my phrase of the week, in case you haven't noticed, BAM BITCHES. Ehm, today today...not much interesting happened today. Except we WON OUR LAST GAME OF TEH SEASON. Teehee. It makes me happpyyyyyyy. Cuz I scored the first goal. And in lacrosse in gym I shoved Kyle over and finally got Max to stop trying to hit me while I was marking him cuz right after shoving Kyle over with my shoulder I glared at Max while he tried to hit me and told him to stop or I'd respond in a more vicious way and he sneered but backed off. BAM BITCHES. Wow I gotta stop saying that. Heeheehee. I interrupted a snogfest. SNOG! AHAHAH! Maya, are you texting your snooooog budddy! EEEHEEEHEEE---the laughter being Maya. Ha, and I think I've finally pushed Kyle to be more annoying. joy. I wondered if it was possible, jeesus, you think he'd get that NEWS FLASH PEOPLE DO NOT LIKE SOME OF THE SHIT HE DOES! If he actually wasn't annoying I wouldn't be bitchy, but he'd probably have to do something like jump in rapids to not be annooying. Yesterday what I didn't post..ehmm Betsy Ellsworth's twins swarmed me while I was waiting for the lacrosse game to start and tried to put an ice pack on the back of my neck, and I was outrunning them and then they clambered all over. For five year olds they are faast li'l munchkins. Funfun, and I watched the lacrosse team (middle school) score repeatedly (4 times) and then I left. and they lost. ha.Ho hum. I'm done babbling now, loookie and my music quote. and comment cuz I love ya'll.
-----Caustic Sarcasm
It's too late baby, there's no turning around, I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud, This is how I do, When I think about you, I never thought that you could break me apart, I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes, This is how I feel, And it's so surreal, I got a closet filled up to the brim, With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons, And I don't know why, You'd even try, But I won't lie
-----Caustic Sarcasm
It's too late baby, there's no turning around, I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud, This is how I do, When I think about you, I never thought that you could break me apart, I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes, This is how I feel, And it's so surreal, I got a closet filled up to the brim, With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons, And I don't know why, You'd even try, But I won't lie
Drama with the drama and the MORE FRICKIN DRAMA!
Mm. Everything's pretty much good right now. I'm not getting a boyfriend, evah, so I'm living with the fact. Ehm. I'm happy for Nina and Josh so BAM BITCHES! You don't like it then to fuckin bad! They're my friends and I f..okay I'm done. But seriously people, be happy that someone's lovelife is friggin well working out for someone! Jaysus! Mckenna, I'm not sure how she's doin right now. Lotta my other friends are okay. Most of my guyfriends (meaning aside from the single one I have a GH the sk ones) are off for a week in trips to places like Las Vegas, or Sleeping Bear Dunes. All that fun shit. I'm almost wishing I could be there, but honestly, everyone's split from the original group there, so it wouldn't be all that fun. Bah. Eh, I can't say much more than that, I'm content despite the solid ache around my heart, and I'm hoping everyone else is. Ta ta dahlings. Comment if you luffers me or agree with some point here!
----Caustic Sarcasm
I gotta be honest, I think you know, we're covered in lies and that's okay, at least somewhere beyond this, I know, I hope I can find the words to say, anyway, never again, no no, no never again, cuz you're a god, and I am not, and I just thought that you would know. You're a god, oh when I am not, and I just thought I'd let you go. It's under the table, so, I'm learning things I oughta know by now...
----Caustic Sarcasm
I gotta be honest, I think you know, we're covered in lies and that's okay, at least somewhere beyond this, I know, I hope I can find the words to say, anyway, never again, no no, no never again, cuz you're a god, and I am not, and I just thought that you would know. You're a god, oh when I am not, and I just thought I'd let you go. It's under the table, so, I'm learning things I oughta know by now...
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