What does one do when life...

is YOUR BITCH for one day. Okay today...fast forward to lunch. Cuz that was damn fun. So I go and sit by Ninabobina who moves seats (either to avoid Jordyn or sit with Josh XD) and then I'm up against the pillar (wow that sounded disgusting) in the corner of the table, Xavier sits next to me, Jordyn next to him, and across from us Chris is made to sit down by Jim, Ben, and Jeff so Andrew can't sit down. Very amusing. Proceed through lunch with perverted jokes, stealing food, cake, and random acts of violence. End Lunch. Go to english. In English Lauren and I are partners, and We have NO IDEA WHAT TO DO to exaggerate our characters cuz they are as boring as one gets. Meanwhile, Chris and Denise sit there and laugh/smirk at us, and then Ms Ebeling came on in and corrected us and showed us how to exaggerate, and Lauren pronounced guileless as guileness. Teehee. Fast forward to after school. Proceed out to the sixth grade end, and play soccer with sixth graders (who say eighth graders can't play soccer) get Josh, Marion, Nick, Meredith, Katy, and Mikayla to join in. FUN! And John later on. Gr. But it was fun. And then some highschoolers came out, and then more highschoolers, and then the asg lady said I couldn't play cuz it was just me, Kyle, and a TON of freshies, and one sophmore. And she was afraid if I took the ball away from them I would get "hurt" because I hurt the boys egos. Nevermind the fact that her own daughter plays soccer, and I can and will frequently level people in my way. So I called up my mom which was amusing cuz I could hear her trying not to laugh. Mwhaha. Um then me and Jackie invaded the lacrosse BBQ cuz none of the highschoolers passed, and we hung out, and ate, and I poured water on Jordyn like 6 times. Or more. And then he threatened me and I threatened back. FUNFUN. So then around the end it was pretty much Me, Lauren, and Diaaanaa, and we were hanging out and making bored or comments that were boy-related cuz SOMEONE kept staring at Lauren. Bah, he is a LOSER. L-O-S-E-R mwhah*cough* *ducks thwaps* Um.umum...and then while we were in the forum, Lauren gained, not only quotes, but a new phrase. Apparently she is now "doctor love". It really is a miracle we haven't been killed by Adam yet and hidden in a dark corner. I walked with Lauren halfway past the highschool end, went back up really fast after my mom called up to the middleschool end and hid in a tree. The end. Oh yes, and this music quote is dedicated to the girls who couldn't say what they knew they should or could to that special someone.
----Caustic Sarcasm
I'm tugging at my hair, I'm pulling at my clothes, I'm trying to keep my cool, I know it shows, I'm staring at my feet, my cheeks are turning red, I'm searching for the words inside my head, I'm feeling nervous, trying to be so perfect, cuz I know you're worth it. You're worth it yeah. I can say what I wanna say, I say I wanna blow you away be with you every night, am I squeezing you tonight, yes I'm wishing my life away, with these things I'll never say. What is wrong, with my tongue, these words keep slipping away, I stumble, I stutter, and I've got nothing to say, cuz I'm feeling nervous trying to be so perfect, cuz I know you're worth it, you're worth it yeah.

Damn Regret!

Mm. See the title? Don't you guys just love me being cheerful. I love being cheerful too. Especially when it means I can use 'kenna as a pillow and have tickle fights. despite having fleas all over (cuz of my cats and they had this flea stuff but it didn't work and now the fleas are taking over and I've already killed one of the little bastards and WILL DESTROY THEM ALL WITH MY CALCULATOR) *cough* ummmm. I'm a li'l bit annoyed cuz I am STILL BLOCKED AND HAVE NO IDEA WHY! NO REASON GIVEN JUST...BAM! And I don't like that at all. Hahaha Lauren, our skit in english is soooooo crappy. JOOSH! SMOSSSH!!!! That talk after school was good. It was a sleepy sorta day. But it was still fun, despite the ASG lady yelling about the tree thing. Evil asg lady. EVIL I TELLS YA. Does anyone know if the concert next week is band/orchestra or just orchestra?
-----Caustic Sarcasm
There you go, you're always so right, it's all a big show, it's all about you, you think you know, what everyone needs, you always take time to criticize me, it seems like every day, I make mistakes, I just can't get it right, it's like, I'm the one, you love to hate, but not today. So Shut UP Shut up Shut up, don't wanna hear it, get out, get out get out, get out of my way, step up step up step up, you'll never stop me, nothing you say today is gonna bring me down! You never ask why, it's all a big why, whatever you do, you think you're special, but I know, and I know, and we know that you're not, you're always there to point out my mistakes and shove them in my face, it's like I'm the one who loves to hate, but not today!

AMOEBAS!

So so so...lets see what all happened.ME AND 'Kenna had a TICKLE FIGHT! SO fun. and we were like "nick you have five seconds to run fivefourthreetwo" and he took off really fast and we almost caught him but 'kenna stopped and we went back to doing that. And this is where things get less interesting. Go home. Be a maniac. Surf internet. TALK TO NINABOBINA and joshepü (josh mostly about soccer and WHY DID HE HAVE TO INVITE JOHN GRRR) and nina about hot guys. And friends. And evil dance class. EVIL I TELL YOU! EHHEVIIILLLLLL *cough* ummmm not much more to say. GUMMI BEARS ARE EATING MY BRAIN! CUZ THAT'S JUST HOW DAMN HYPER I AM!
---Caustic Sarcasm
I know a girl, whose obsessed with this guy, she'll call for hours, and still he hangs, and when he finally picks up and tells her to leave. At six in the morning she waits at the door, tells her to leave but, still she follows, the next morning she'll be there again, she won't let go. Can't you just go somewhere on vacation, I would book your flight and pack your bags if you want, a one way ticket outta my life, watching you fly away, I NEVER LIKED YOU! I NEVER WANTED YOU!

hee

Karate is awesome. Have I ever said that? I don't believe I will, so...okay, my sensei is the head of the dojo. But he is INCREDIBLY awesome, we're allowed to talk in the classes, I'm allowed to see the swords he buys, AND DRAW THEM FROM THE SHEATHE, more then my family let me do. :D. The people in my class are incredibly hilarious and fun to hang out with (with the exception of one of them but I'll live) and the style I'm doing is incredibly wonderfully AWESOME. Not only is this style of karate only once a week, and different from the kind normally taught (goju-ryu or goju-style) and it's motto is "apply hard to soft, soft to hard" meaning someone throws a punch, block it and respond, someone grabs, throw a punch etc. It's frickin awesome. Did I mention THAT MY TUESDAY KARATE CLASS IS FUCKIN AWESOME! Not much more to say. TWO MORE WEEKS AND I AM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*coughwheeze* *DIE* I have nothing more to say. NINER NINER!!
---Caustic Sarcasm
Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep, this air is blessed, you share with me, this night is wild, so calm and dull, these hearts they race, from soft control, your lips are smooth as they graze mine, we're doing, we're doing nothing at, all. My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, so won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelery whichever you prefer. The words are, hush, lets not get busted. Just layin' twined here, undiscovered, safe here from all those stupid questions, hey did you get some? Man that is so dumb, stay quiet stay near stay crystal, can't hear. So we can get some. My hopes are so high your kiss might kill me, so won't you kill me, so I die happy, my heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelery whichever you prefer..

Yeah. whatever

Today was mostly good. my laptop got fixed by both me and daddy, though mostly daddy, little bit down in the dumps, but whatever, since I'm pretty sure ya'll are sick of my whining. And since no one listened to the last post at all, or I would bet a large amount of money they did if it wasn't Nina, I'll just drop that subject too.
On a completely different note, has anyone ever felt like they have this huge THING inside of them, and every time it rears it's ugly head we feel horrible? Yeah, for me, that thing's my temper. I've seen it before, I've seen that part of me before, and it's ugly as hell, and terrifies me. I've been painted the monster before because I couldn't keep in control, and I don't want it to happen again, not now, not ever, not even if it could save my life. I refuse to be a monster to people, and be called a bully by my own friends. And if you stupid people, or you people who care too much about someone as nutsy as me, think I need therapy, or anger management I DO NOT. I will NOT do any kinds of therapy. I intend to do this on my own. So whatever. I'm sure you people have better things to do then listen to insufferable whineiness so go have a nice day. Play outside while it's a good tempature before all the 'squiteers (mosquitos) come out.
----Caustic Sarcasm
Something has been taken, from deep inside of me, a secret I've kept locked away, no one can ever see. Wounds so deep they never close, they never go away, like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played. (If I could change I would, take up the pain I would, retrace every wrong move that I made I would, if I could stand up and take the blame I would, If I could take all my shame to the grave I would) It's easier to run, replacing this pain with all numb, it's so much easier to run, replacing all this pain. Just washing it aside, all of the helplessness inside, pretending I don't feel this way, it's so much easier then change. It's easier to run, replacing this pain with something numb, it's so much easier to run, then face all this pain, you're all alone.

ENOUGH WITH THE FREAKIN D-R-A-M-A

Gods teeth and toenails, LISTEN TO YOURSELVES. Everyone is in a fucking huge ROILING mess of rumors, and lies, and whatever else THEY HAVE HEARD. But isn't it enough? Hell's Bells, do you people ever actually stop and LISTEN to what you are saying. You guys are going after your friends, and everyone has at least said once "What are you blaming me for I only HEARD this." I mean seriously people! Everyone is biting someone's head off but it's fucking well ENOUGH. Look, there are rumors, and lies, and all sorts of nasty shit going down, and that is goddamn well enough. We aren't in 4th grade anymore, we're up in the bigger leagues, and we need to sort this out. This isn't directed at one or two people. It's everyone. Everyone is taking sides, and fighting, and in general being bitches. Including myself when I get like that. Everyone wants to defend their friend, but seriously people turn an eye inward! "Let he without sin cast the first stone" christ on a crutch. You guys are all saying "I've heard from "people" that you said this about me" Well if they've said NO WE HAVE NOT SAID THAT. Give them the benefit of the doubt. Or if you've been saying something goddamn well admit it. Don't go after each other like a pack of frickin animals! We accuse the guys of acting like this, and then we act like..like I don't know what, a pack of lions going in for the kill on someone they're driving out. Just...chill and let's sort this out instead of going after each. Just...relax.
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So typically so typically stars set back and perfectly dropped off learning so perfectly tonight. I am she does you are she was and that's because and that's because, but you never tried, but you never tried, take me out back stich my ripped knees, take them out back stitch em tight and I've got too many times. I'm selfish as selfish comes, you're giving me a run, for my money. Honey.